I don't know John. I have done what I can to see what the close future holds, but I can only see so much. I am only allowed only a taste of what I can know. Tantalizing, yet satisfying.

[She wishes she could just not think about it. But, she was the one who analyzed each detail. She was the one who started that stupid guide.]

I suppose I wish that I could just stare forward and actually convince myself that this will not end in folly.